February 2008

My misery continues and has started accumulating in my mind. I cannot share it with anyone because no one would understand or even the persons who could understand are not in a position to understand. My misery would appear a self-created one to most or it would be considered meaningless. I believe that I am a fighter to the core and that I will eventually overcome all these temporary troubles and achieve great things. I hope every thing turns out positive and I pray to God to give me the strength to face whatever comes. Om Shanti Om!

The recent few days have been totally exhausting and demoralising. Too much has happened in too little time. I got my long-awaited and long-craved, albeit expensive,laptop of my dreams. I have had too much of work to do but have been unable to do anything meaningfully. The way I’m treated by the people, the troubles that the situations, unexpected and shocking happenings give, have left me in an emotional storm. A few dreams have been realised, a few cruelly crushed, giving no emotional relaxation. Also my inability to do anything meaningful due to a variety of reasons, relationships turning slightly sour too often continue to drive me mad.

The arrival of my laptop was supposed to be a release from most of my troubles but instead i’ve scarcely had time to use it. My health has also started to play spoilsport almost everyday making daily life worse than Hell probably. 🙁 I hope things will change for better!